Miss It

My last post got me to thinking how fast time goes by.
How did it get to be the third week of April already? I look around and find that the grass is green and the flowers are in bloom. When did that happen? The baby birds are already leaving their nest and soon the hot summer will be here. When I was young it seemed to drag and take forever for a week to go by. Now the days melt into each other and I never feel like I have sat down and enjoyed any of them.
I wake up, go to work all the while wishing the hours away so I can go home. When I do, I rush to make dinner, sit down awhile at the computer or read a book trying to relax. I might do a bit of cleaning if I have the energy for it, if not that waits until my days off. I am always anxious for them. Hurry Hurry I am tired I need a day off, wait where did it go. Another week at work, another month goes by. I look in the mirror. I am 54. That can't be, I was just 40 the other day. My kids were babies and before that I was a young bride buying my first home. It can't be 2008. I just graduated high school a few years ago. What do mean that was in 1972?
I miss those happy carefree days. Why is it when we are young we can't wait to grow up. When we grow up we can't wait to marry, then have kids, buy a house, get a new car. Time rushes past and one day you look in the mirror and your hair is gray, lines around the eyes. Twenty extra pounds.
My daughter tells me. I want.....I want this..I want that. The baby is driving me crazy. I look at her and see a little girl. My son should be a young man. yet each are grown with a life of there own.
My grandson is almost three, and I tell her. Slow down, enjoy life.

I breath a silent prayer to the universe telling time to slow down. Your going to fast.....Let it last.....Let it last
I think how fast my own life has gone, I think about the boyfriend and being 14, FORTY YEARS. Where did they go. I tell her
Take time to enjoy each moment before it is gone.
Breath and just live.
Because no matter how crazy things seem believe it or not.
Your gonna miss it.