Thursday, December 10, 2009

And so it begins

All I have to say about this Christmas season is ba humbug.  I know it is terrible to feel that way, but I honestly hate this time of year. First of all working retail sucks. We don't have enough help this year, and by the end of the day all I want to do is come home and sleep. That leaves me feeling as if I don't have enough down time. I don' want to come home and just sleep. I want to relax, read, surf the net. Sleeping is just that sleeping. I get up and go back to work. I want ME time.
Also our annual have a friend or relative die season is here. If you have read me for awhile you know that every year for the last five or six years either a family member or friend has died between Thanksgiving and Christmas. Well it happened again this week. One of my mom's sisters died. She had been ill for awhile with cancer and went into the hospital Thanksgiving day, and died on Monday. The same day another one of our family members died. This time it was the adopted son of my cousin. Actually it was his wife's nephew. When the young man was a young child his parents were killed in a car wreck, so his Aunt (my cousins wife) and my cousin adopted him. I've never been around this young man since they live in a different state, but for some reason that we (our immediate family) doesn't know yet, he choose to take his own life this week. On the same day my Aunt died. This means my mom's older sister lost not only a younger sister but a grandchild.
Sad week all around.
On the immediate home front. My husband and I are once again sharing a car. His is broken. We have someone looking at it on Saturday, hopefully it will be an easy fix. If not we are screwed, since we have no funds to fix it. As it is sharing one car  sucks. Dean and I are working different schedules, so I am going in early or staying late. At lest I guess I will get a lot of books read.
I haven't done any shopping and do not have even one thing that resembles Christmas in my home. I probably will give in and put out a few things, but may skip the tree this year. No one come over to see it anyway. With my grandson in school now I rarely see my daughter except on the weekends and I am working those until after the holidays. The adults in our family have opted not to do Christmas this year, but I will buy for my grandson. If my kids get anything it will be cash (If we have any that last week).
Anyway that is life here. Sorry for it to sound so down around here but that is the way it is.
I hope your season is going better

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Blogger laura said...

Been there done that!!I feel for you if you work retail at this time of the year! This is the first time in over 10 years that I'm not working 2 jobs and one of them was waitressing. December was awful!! Working tons of Christmas parties complete with extra days and late nights. I finally stopped putting up a tree because I had absolutely no time. I started my full time job at 8 am and went straight to my waitressing job at 5 pm. I didn't even start Christmas shopping until days before the holiday itself. One December my muffler fell off. Another December my starter quit. My mailbox was knocked over by a plow, it snowed like crazy and I still had to shovel my driveway each night! I was single so I had no one to help and it was awful!! So if you want to feel yukky about Christmas you go right ahead!!!! There is so much pressure at this time of the year to be happy and sometimes life just doesn't work out that way! Hang in there, you're not alone!

December 11, 2009 at 9:18 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've gotten to the point where I like a lot of the things surrounding Christmas, but can't stand the buying/gifting culture. We're not going to do gifts at home, and I'm going to bake cookies for all the friends and neighbors. However ... I love the snow, I love the music, and I love seeing the lift in people's spirits in our little village.

Meanwhile, I am trying to find a new "real life ghost stories book" that I haven't read! I can't find one I don't already have! LOL

December 11, 2009 at 10:11 PM  
Blogger Deborah Wilson said...


Sorry for your loss, sending my condolences...

And working retail is terrible not only around Christmas but most Holidays. I'm not having a good month either. But keep your spirits up, it will be over soon.

December 12, 2009 at 6:30 PM  
Blogger Linda said...

Having worked retail myself in the past, I can totally sympathize with how you feel. It just totally sucks all of the ho-ho-ho out of the holidays, doesn't it?

So sorry to hear about the losses in your family. Working in the medical field (sort of), I've noticed that deaths go way up between Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm sure there's some sort of good reason for it but I don't know ... maybe it's just too much for some people and they figure this is a good time to die.

Hang in there, Christmas is less than two weeks away and then maybe things will let up a bit.

December 12, 2009 at 8:51 PM  
Blogger Nydia said...

Sorry for such hard time in your life, Autumn! I hope somehow you find joy to end this year and start the new one!

And thank for your words on my last post. You haven1t put any idea in my head, actualy the thought of my ex manipulating this story came to me immediately too! It didn't work, anyway...

Love from us.

December 14, 2009 at 11:37 AM  
Blogger KathyA said...

I am so sorry you're having a tough time of it. We've been through years when everything we've touched seemed to turn to doodoo. I hope things turn around for you and quickly, too!

December 14, 2009 at 4:20 PM  
Blogger Autumnforest said...

I posted this at your ghost hunting blog too, but I'm writing comments of thanks for blogs I follow.

I love this one for many of the same reasons as the other one. The layout makes me feel immediately at home. I feel like I've known you forever and in the virtual world--that's a true gift. I hope you survive the holiday buying season workload and hope you getaway to Gettysburg again--love the pictures! Keep it up!

December 15, 2009 at 12:23 AM  
Blogger dyeve said...

Oh, God! Im sorry to hear that. really sorry. But, U must be a ll optimistic, please..It will be yo're time soon..ME TIME..smiles..
I had this bad days the past..not so long time ago..The diference was that nobody dead..just my soul..sometimes..:(
But, I trie each day ti still energy from Univers..and back ahain in it is. We deserve to be happy and have also that personal time. Sorry for my bad english.. :)
Have a wonderful day!..and froim today just splendid and gourgeus day. Maybe is about time.. I meet Santa and he told me that U will have all u wish from today! ;)

December 15, 2009 at 12:27 AM  
Blogger dyeve said...

ps - *erate - gorgeus dayS..smiles

December 15, 2009 at 12:30 AM  

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